>>25324
I'm obviously not an expert on the topic, but I’ve dealt with suicidality unmedicated since I was around 8- all I can say is life finds a way. I think the most important thing is to work on introspection, understanding what’s making you feel this way: extreme boredom with life in general, a mistake/screw-up, unhappiness for where you’ve ended up in life, a genuine chemical imbalance in your brain, etc. as well as anything you can grab onto to keep going/things you can do to help yourself.

For me, I’m the youngest in a large family (and also a wimp), so I always knew I couldn’t actually commit, but at the same time, I sort of trained myself to become motivated by uncaringness and spite for whatever’s making me feel that way. In the past year, I’ve gotten used to going through the same things that beat me down, and just learned to take a few hours or a day to dwell on it, then go “WHATEVER! The world keeps turning despite it! The days will keep coming! I’ve made it through tough times and I’ll make it through tougher times in the future, because that's all I can do. This won't matter in a month/year/five years unless I cut my time off now” and move on with the rest of the world. It's difficult, but you have to see suicide as something that isn't even an option- your most defeatist option should be that you just have to keep moving. And you can't give yourself any time to dwell on that. Every time you feel that way is a step to make the unavoidable next time easier. This is a little silly, but when dealing with negative thoughts specifically, I essentially split that part of myself into a second figure in my head expressly so I can tell it to shut up and stop being a useless catastrophizing baby. It's dumb, but it gives back some of the autonomy that it can feel like depression takes.

If you're just bored with life, >>25329 's advice is obviously great! The most important thing to realize is that you can hold onto anything. For me, often in my toughest times I survive because it's just what I have to do. I'm rewarded later on with the release of a game or show I like, something as simple as a beautiful cold morning, or the sudden, random alleviation of those feelings. If I feel those thoughts creeping in, I genuinely just distract myself all day, take care of myself, and hope to wake up feeling a little better the next day. Anything to get dopamine up! It's also important to know that this feeling specifically is often a mental manifestation of physical problems that can be fixed- you could be lacking a certain vitamin, or need to go on a medication. It could even be as simple of a (partial) solution as exercising (which has genuinely helped me) or getting out in the sun more often. Outside of that factor, you could have a perfectly normal life.

Things can get better, and they usually do, especially if you give yourself a chance. Reach out, find something you love or at least something to make you feel human, look for those that care for you.

Everyone stay safe, love you!