#25259 Name: Anonymous   6h
>>25256
college relationships seem intense by the nature of people living in each others pockets, but they fade equally quickly when 'the band splits up' as you have found. they've moved on, now it's your turn...
#25260 Name: Anonymous   9h
>>25259
I regret jacking off in front of my roomie.
#25261 Name: Anonymous   9h
>>25256
I wouldn't worry about it too much, after college everyone will go their seperate ways and you'll probably never see most of them again. Then once you get a job you'll be lucky to see the people from your old life a handful of times per year at most. So yea, if you don't really enjoy being around them much anymore I wouldn't force it, you'll all drift apart soon anyway after graduation.
#25262 Name: Anonymous   12h
>>25256
This is the age where it's pretty normal to lose friends to physical distance and an imbalance of give and take.
#25263 Name: Anonymous   13h
Getting older is hard to cope with. You can never go backwards, only forwards. Nostalgia stings, and regrets accumulate. It would be nice to wake up and be young again; Living in a world where adults are authority figures, life is on rails, and everything can wait.

Living in the present is clearly the way to go, but I am so bored and understimulated.
#25264 Name: Anonymous   13h
>>25263
but I am so bored and understimulated,

So relatable, this is how I am the most of my life. I barely get any joy from anything and I'm constantly bored. One of the not-so-many things I enjoy is talking to people
#25265 Name: Anonymous   13h
>>25264
Talking to people is great, adds some much needed colour, for sure.

Perhaps the grave mindset is a sign of burnout? Hard to accept burning out as someone who isn't career-minded anymore. Or as someone who is a child at heart.

Another thing is missing when everything was new to you. Then over time, nothing becomes surprising.

Hopefully this can all be undone. Stubbornness makes giving up a non-option.
#25266 Name: Anonymous   15h
>>25265
I can't really say that I'm burnt out, ever since I became a teenager things were much more mentally exhausting to me, I think the environment's holding a pretty heavy effect on me too but nothing I can really change here.

I found making art a greatly good way to cope with the most of the things that bother me. I wish I could inspire more people, the thought of cheering someone's day up with something I made just makes it feel like living is actually worth it sometimes
#25267 Name: Anonymous   16h
>>25266
Social pressures as a teen, whatever your family's circumstances, hormones kicking in. Being a teenager is definitely not a time to romanticize much. Life before 13-14 was much more ideal to me.

cheering someone's day up with something I made

Never really thought about marking art with that purpose. Usually I make art to amuse myself, regardless of how half-baked the attempt is. But as a tool of brightening the world, might be a good idea.
#25268 Name: Anonymous   18h
Is it weird to wish I didn't have to "deal with" having friends?

Yes, but only because it's so easy to discard them. All you have to do is stop answering texts or social media and you're done with them.
#25269 Name: Anonymous   19h
>>25267
Life before 13-14 was much more ideal to me

It's kind of sad to realize that I don't have a period in my life that I genuinely enjoyed, of course there always are good portions of life, but my whole adolescence seems to be full of shit, just in different ratios. I also seem to be irretrievably forget my childhood, I think I barely remember anything to the age of 8.

Usually I make art to amuse myself, regardless of how half-baked attempt is

Kind of the same for me actually, most of the stuff I'd make would be in the first place just for me. I just know for sure there would be at least one person that would enjoy my stuff and whenever anybody really does enjoy it, it works as a really nice bonus for me.